Random thoughts about beauty...

Dear Readers,

I can't help it but share with you what's running through my mind...I am usually not into watching movies (since this action doesn't evolve my imagination)...However, I was feeling kind of alone and since I had to keep the bed at least one day (God, I hate colds soo much), I decided to waste some of my brain cells by tasting part of the contemporary art called cinema.

Fortunately, I found a movie that made me wonder, think...I watched "Gia"...you know the movie for the fashion model Gia Carrangi, who died of AIDS couple of years ago. I cannot say that the movie was a piece of art in the common way but it definitely gave my mind some food for lunch.

So, I was thinking about the destiny of the beautiful people. I guess I should start with a definition of beauty. Hard task, I would say...I believe that beauty is subjective and cannot be put in any traditional limits. Even fashion magazines (that tend to be familiar with the way that community accepts beauty) cannot find only one person to cover all requirements for eternal beauty!

However, there are certain people that posses something...either in their features or their character that makes them attractive...dangerously attractive. I cannot even explain how these people catch the eye of everybody but once you see such person, you know that nothing is going to be the same again. These are the people I want to talk about today...

To be honest, people claim that I am beautiful and attractive...even sexy (which by the way makes me out of my mind...I could never be able to understand what's the reason to be described this way). For me...this is something new and strange since I have never accepted myself as a common beauty. I have been trained to depend on my brain, my intelligence and for a long time I believed that the only thing that attract people in me is my personality...I was so wrong. I know that the first thing people notice is the appearance (although we can learn to see with our inner eyes)...However, I also know that most of the people, although they claim the opposite, don't even appreciate beauty. I can make a difference between the animal desire to posses something attractive and the superior feeling that comes inside your soul when you find somethig beautiful and unique. The first one is followed by lust...the second makes you thank to all natural powers for the wonderful creativity that surrounds us. Of course I am not talking about the way you feel about a painting or a sculpture...

I have noticed so far that beautiful people suffer as much as the others. Take for example this model Gia...I felt so sad about her...a girl with intelligence, a deep soul and everybody accepted her a sex object...as a doll. Such a waste of a spirit! Sadly, such things happen all of the time. And what is the reason...simply people do not want to make an effort to think...to discover what's behind the layers of the beauty...to realize that sometimes beauty comes from the charm...charm comes from the rich inner world...rich inner world is a result of a higher spiritual level etc.

Anyway, another thing that bothers me is the fear...have you noticed how afraid get people in the presence of beautiful creatures... "You are not in my league", "You are too beautiful, what do you find in me?", "I cannot talk to him/her because he/she is beautiful". What the hell is going on right here? "You are not in my legaue"...this is not a football championship! We are just human beings...we posses parts of a common spirit...we are all creators of the reality around us! Why should it be so difficult to find the path to the others...because of fear...vanity...lack of self confidence...You know, we can overcome all of this and stop ruining the beauty around us. Something more...we can even create beauty if we use our minds in a constructive matter!

Dear Readers, I am not trying to judge this world...I am sharing this thoughts because I want to change the perspective, the point of view...and yes, also because I feel alone and sad from time to time. I was about to start writing a journal but I usually use the paper for other more constructive actions...

I am out of my speech now...I just felt like there's nothing much to say, although I have a lot of thoughts running in my mind. I am not very talkative, you know...I prefer to express myself with drawing...

So, dear readers, have a wonderful rest of this Sunday and please let the beauty enlightens your souls...do not just use it for a temporary pleasure!