I spent some days in a really strange mood...pushing myself to all possible extremes...from sorrow to joy, from passion to apathy etc. However, this is not the point at all...In the meantime, I was thinking a lot about all people who crossed my way somehow in the past years (okay, most especially about two of them but it doesn't matter now)!
Have you ever noticed that there are a lot of people out there who consider themselves "common" or "normal"? I was wondering what the hell does this mean?
"People (also common people, commons, rabble, hoi polloi, masses) is the main toiling underprivileged part of the population who determine the group character and preserve its customs from one generation to the next.
The common people does not include or consider the privileged strata of the population, as well as ruling classes, even if the latter do not formally have privileges. The people generally does not include the government."
The description above totally shocked me! "Privileged strata"..."ruling classes"? Can you notice that we are all put into a very small cage since we were kids? Well, my family wasn't this way since my father believed we should go against the rules, succeed in life despite of the community, not with its help and so on. But most of the people grow up with the idea that they are "simple", "nothing much" or just "normal". And what happens next...they start living on a schedule, on a scheme like "going to school -> going to highschool /college/ -> going to university -> marriage -> children /could be at the same time with marriage, or before it, or instead of it...whatever...the main idea is to be with somebody and reproduce yourself/ -> some job -> some apartment -> going to work -> going home -> some parties -> work -> home -> work -> home -> death /like the final act of the performance/. Sounds to me so...boring is not enough...let's say...meaningless! I had the "rare" chance to know a person, who was obsessed of the idea to be "normal". Any look besides the straight direction seemed to him like a betrayal of his own nature...he was so addicted to making money, going to work, socially meeting of friends because "c'mon, they are my friends, I have to", pretending to be serious...I think this person was totally lost in his life. It was like a real torture to be around...like your life is already planned and if you step aside, or look in the wrong direction...you will fall, or ruin his fragile reality!
I am sure that his reality is not stable at all! I think that being "common" is just a mask...a mask that hides the initial fear of changes...like people are kind of addicted to ready models and if somebody try to ruin it, they start acting like drug addicted! But can you imagine...most of us are under the influence of a very dangerous drug...the inertion! I know that sometimes this way of life is used as a protection cage but it is protecting us from what? From living I guess...it all becomes just a survival! No joy, no passion, no new ideas...so, what's the reason to be here if we live like "common" people? Do we have fun? Do we enjoy living? Do we feel great in our bodies?
I have read numerous books regarding how we should speak, how we should act, how we should sit, how we shoud eat...some guide for a proper living...But am I not the only one who knows best what proper living is? I am the ruler of the machine called body and spirit. I should be the one to decide...so, if my laughter sounds not pleasant to somebody, or my voice is too loud or too low, or my eyes are green or brown...then what? I read that if I have annoying laughter, I should work on it...if I don't have good teeth, I should go to a dentist and then to make my apperance to the world! Sorry, but this is ridiculous! I do not deny that we should try to improve ourselves but to do it just because there is some model we have to follow...this one I cannot accept! If I want to do something for myself, only for myself, to feel better, to like myself or something...then I must do it...but if it is because I have to fit to the requirements...thanks, but no thanks! For example...if I try to follow the rules how to act on a private party in my boss' home...I will get crazy! I will look like there is something in my ass...with one word "stuck"! Can you imagine...to think all of the time about "step one: I smile"..."step two: my voice should sound pleasantly", etc. God, I will forget my own name if I have to remember all this! Isn't it better to be yourself...to do what you feel you have to do? Yes, you can embarass yourself by being out of normality but you could also change something in the world or in the people...why not? Maybe we are all here the way we are with a purpose! We are in the proper body, with the proper character to do what we came for...I am sorry but I am sure that we should follow our intuition...not the rules!
For example, as a kid, I have been told that I should be ballet dancer...okay, but I don't feel myself like being able to do it! Forgive me, although my deep respect to this art, it is not my cup of tea...I am just not a performer in this way! So, the rule was: you are small, thin, that is why you must be a ballet dancer! Haha...but if all small and thin, sweet girls become ballet dancers...can you imagine the competition :) Anyway, I mean that we shouldn't be put in any limits! ANY!
I was lucky enough to grow up in some kind of an artistic family. My father has a revolting character and he is always looking for breaks in the system...so, he trained me to look for my own path, no matter how long, difficult and ugly it can look like...I have been always avoiding the highways of life since I was a kid...it's like I am betraying my own originallity and individualism if I go straight way! I know...it's an extreme...but I have found a lot of wonderful things and people on the side roads :)
So, dear readers, think about this! Do you consider yourself "common"? Because if you do...I am sorry to tell you this...but you will stay unsignificant in the rest of your life! You like it this way? Then next time don't try to copy the clothes of the model on the Vogue's cover, or do not try to copy the behaviour of your favourite rock star...! Anyway, if you think that "common" suits you, stop admiring the uncommon ones! And remember...you are original...you don't need to be anybody's copy and you don't really need these walls that everybody are building around you!
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