Life of a single girl...

Dear Readers,

I am glad to be able to sit down and write again, although many people think that having a blog is for stupid, ugly, unsuccessful people, who cannot get laid! Honestly, I don't feel that way because I was on the other side...always partying, always going out with different people, never stay at home, never even think about what I feel.

In the moment I stayed at home for a while (although I am still not too much homey person) I realized that I have used this place just as a wardrobe and there is not even a single part of me here. I felt like a stranger and I felt like I have no place, which is all mine.

But do you know what? It's great to know that although being alone, you're not lonely...No, I am not trying to fool you! I forgot what is it like to read one book from the beginning to the end just for few hours, I forgot what is it like to take long, hot shower, without any hurry and worries, I forgot what is it like to listen the music that you love, without any second thought, I forgot what is it like to dress up, without thinking how somebody else will react! It's great to do all of the stuff for yourself, only yourself! Even this blog is for myself because I know many of you will judge me, or think I am crazy...but...it's wonderful to write down your thoughts sometimes and see where you're going in your mind.

Anyway, so let me tell you more about the life of a single girl...it's not scary at all, on the contrary, it's giving you the chance to get to know yourself, the real you, not the part of a couple. I discovered so many hidden abilities of myself, my head is full of ideas and even my eyes are reflecting my inner fire, that I lost some time ago! Now, I can walk with pride, self confidence and joy of life. I started to notice the little things again...such small things like the street dog, or the sunset, or the beautiful white clouds, or the strange light at 4 o'clock...and I realized that the world is so much more beautiful than we think. Just think about it...all of our surrounding can be beautiful if we open our eyes. According to many scientists, we are the one who create the world around us and I tend to believe them. So, why should we see the ugly or bad things. I read somewhere that for our subconscious the part "no" doesn't exist. There is no "it's not there" or "it is not possible". On subconscious level we can accept only positive expressions or if it is negative the "no" part will be removed. That is why, there is no need to command yourself "Don't cry" because not will be deleted and your command will be "Do cry!". So why should we punish ourselves with negatives...why don't we turn the process to build something instead of ruining it?
Dear readers, I think we people, we are masochists...we love pain because it's easier to be a victim. Just think about it...if you are a victim, everybody will try to help you, to support you and you will not be responsible for anything in your life...but why? Isn't it better to fight for what you want, to use your mind to create instead of ruin...
This is what pass through my single mind and makes me find inner power to create my new beginning. I love such moments of new start...it's so wonderful like you are newborn! So, I advice you to accept the difficulties as a possibility to start again than as some bad hole!
Kisses to all of you and enjoy life...it's beautiful, I swear!